Charlie Sheen Says Hiding Having HIV Was Harder Than Living With It | Invesloan.com

Charlie Sheen says the weight of hiding his HIV diagnosis took a greater toll on him than managing the condition itself.

On Thursday’s episode of “In Depth with Graham Bensinger,” the actor spoke about his new memoir and shed light on his journey living with HIV.

“Keeping it under wraps was a lot worse than just having it. And I didn’t realize that until I finally sat with Matt Lauer, and was just like, ‘Here’s what’s going on,'” Sheen told host Graham Bensinger. “That side of it, that was really difficult because there was a lot of nefarious behavior.”

The “Two and a Half Men” actor said he was “extorted” by people who knew of his diagnosis before he went public.

“I was just like, ‘All right, the only way to make this go away is to do what I did on the freaking ‘Today’ show. On live television, tell the world,” Sheen said.

The actor shared that the lead-up to his diagnosis was filled with a lot of uncertainty, especially after he began experiencing severe headaches.

“I thought it was a brain tumor or spinal something or liver cancer or something terminal for sure, which is why I didn’t want to go to the hospital. And I think I avoided it for like a day and a half, you know, and finally just had to go,” Sheen said.

He added that his ex-wife, Denise Richards, was the one who took him to see a doctor.

Sheen said getting his diagnosis was a sobering moment.

“But when you get the results, when you get the news, you’re like, ‘Oh, OK. All right. Let’s just take it, just take this in.’ You know, it’s not the best news. But there was other news that could have been a lot worse, you know?” Sheen said.

Although it was “really depressing,” Sheen said he was “fortunate” that treatment options were available.

“I had some perspective to look at it as, OK, I thought it was going to be this, and it’s not. So that’s a pretty big win that I’m going to take in the middle of this big loss,” Sheen said. “It was like, OK, we can treat this thing, and there’s like, here’s all the technology for that, you know.”

In 2015, Sheen publicly revealed his HIV diagnosis in a “Today” show interview with Matt Lauer.

Back then, the actor said he paid “enough to bring it into the millions” to people who tried to blackmail him over his condition, and hoped that going public would finally put an end to it.

“That’s my goal. That’s not my only goal. I think I release myself from this prison today,” Sheen said.

Sheen isn’t the only actor who has publicly revealed his HIV diagnosis.

In 2021, actor Billy Porter told The Hollywood Reporter that he chose to reveal his diagnosis to help break stereotypes around living with HIV.

“I’m living so that I can tell the story. There’s a whole generation that was here, and I stand on their shoulders,” Porter said. “I can be who I am in this space, at this time, because of the legacy that they left for me. So it’s time to put my big boy pants on and talk.”

Other celebrities who have spoken about their HIV diagnosis publicly include Magic Johnson and “Queer Eye’s” Jonathan Van Ness.

Although there is no cure for HIV, there are treatment options available. When taken as prescribed, the medication can make the viral load in a person’s body so low that it’s undetectable. Having an undetectable viral load means that the person cannot transmit the virus to others during sex, the CDC said.

A representative for Sheen did not immediately respond to a request for comment sent by Business Insider outside regular hours.